Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Busy Life

Well here we are again. Another week and more work piled on the desk and tons of places to run around you ever get tired of the everyday grind of life? I am so tired that I can't hardly stand it this week. I haven't gone to bed before midnight in like 5 days and I have nothing to show for it. My house is a mess, the laundry isn't done and the stupid dogs got in the trash AGAIN. Brent has been working a lot and I miss him like crazy. I think that's why this week has been so difficult. When we don't see each other a lot we tend to bicker at one another more often. My life doesn't work well when him and I are on different wave lengths. But on a brighter note, we don't have any kids this week end, so we have planned not to leave one another's side if we don't have to...I am looking forward to it. I think it will be just what the doctor ordered for us. I just wish that we could slow down, I feel like we are always running and I'm not dealing with it as well as I had hoped.
On another note, Gracie's birthday party went well. I think everyone had a good time and it was nice. Gracie's Daddy and his wife came...I was nervous about that, because she isn't always the nicest to me, but it turned out pretty good. We have even made tentative plans to go and do karaoke together one night. I think it might be a good way to break the ice and all of us can come to a better understanding of one another and hopefully have a better relationship because of it. So even though it's a little out of my comfort zone, I am embracing this as an opportunity to make life better and not harder. I'll let you know how it turns out...
All of the kids are doing great. Jordan had the kindergarten program at school last week and I was SO proud of him. He actually got up there and sang and did the motions and all. He saw me standing to the side and was smiling ear to ear and waving at me like, "Look at me Mommy!!" It was AMAZING! It was really what I needed this week. Gracie and Jordan are leaving in the morning with Mimi and Giddu to go to Michigan to see snow. They are so excited and I am excited for them! I only wish that I could go with them too, but I know that they will have a blast! Gabby and Ally are getting ready for the FCAT at school and starting soccer soon too. Ethan is starting this year's his first year. I am REALLY excited for this season to start! I LOVE going to their games and watching them run around and waving at us and all. It's so funny. I love that Brent and I have the same mentality about our kids and sports too...we both like to be there cheering as loudly as we can!! I love that! I love the family days. Also, it's about to be Girl Scout cookie time, so slowing down isn't going to happen anytime soon. But it's OK, it's going to be great!
Brent's parents and sister and 4 nephews are coming in July...I am excited about that too! I am trying to get my house in order before they get here. We have been together 3 years in March and I have never met them face to face. I want to make a really good impression, so I am working on the house and finding new meals to cook while they are here and everything. Well, I think that's about it for you see why I named my blog crazy you guys!

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Today they let 6 people go at work. Three of which were on my team. It has been a rough morning and I'm so sick of coming in and wondering if I am going to be the next on the chopping block. It's nerve racking. There were tears this morning and anger, but all in all, I think that the ones let go handled themselves very well. The rest of us, not so much. It just sucks to get to know someone and then boom, they're let go. You know? We spend more time with these people 40 hours a week then we do with our own families. It really sucks. I'm just hoping that I can keep my job to keep my family above water. That's all I have motivation for today. Hopefully tomorrow will be a brighter day.

Monday, February 16, 2009

Well, here it is Monday again. I don't really look forward to Mondays...back to the grind and all, but today has not been too bad. I actually got A LOT of work done today and I am feeling accomplished. I only wish that I could say the same for our big week end plans. LOL We did get a few things done and Grandma is fixing the floor today, so it's not all bad. But not as much as I had hoped to get done. The house is clean and the porch is half bleached and all of the trash in the yard from that stupid dog that keeps stringing it all over everywhere is picked up (thanks to Brent!). So we are well on our way to having a good party and I am excited about it. I love to be the host. Anyway, I don't really have anything exciting maybe tomorrow. Love you guys!

Friday, February 13, 2009


We are getting ready to have Gracie's 4th birthday next week and I am pretty excited about it. We are having it at my house this year and Brent and I have a whole week end planned to get the house in order. I am actually pretty excited about that too. We are going to dig up the existing flower beds and pull out all of the weeds and then redo them. Anyone who knows me at all, knows that I do not have a green thumb. I kill all plants. But Brent has committed to helping me keep things alive and he also says that this will be time well spent together. I agree. It's funny how a little sweat and elbow grease can bring you closer. LOL Anyway, we are also going to bleach the porches and Grandma is coming to fix the foyer floor on Monday. It's all going to be in order, finally. Cleaning is a stress reliever, for me anyway, and I have been super stressed this week, so this is going to help me in more ways than one.

I'm glad it's finally Friday, don't know if I'll be on this week end, so have a great week end and be safe!

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Married Life

Well, I am new to this, but my sister does one and I love to read hers, so I am doing one too. The last few weeks have not been easy. It seems like nothing I do is the right decision and I don't know how to fix it. I can't make everyone happy all of the time, I do realize that, but a little consideration would be nice sometimes. I feel like there are some members of my family that do not have respect for the fact that I am married and therefore are disrespecting me. I am an adult and I chose to marry my husband because I love him very much. Not because it was convenient, or just because he was the first person to show me attention. He is the one person that knows me, all of me, all of the bad stuff that I have done in the past, the good things too, the dreams that I have for my life and all of that is OK with him. He loves me because of these things, not in spite of them. He supports me in a way that no one else does and I love him more than words could ever express. It doesn't matter how much money you have or if you only have one car or whatever, all that matters is that you are happy...and with him I am very happy. We have had our share of hard times the last couple years, but we have become closer with every adversity that has hit us. How many couples do you know that would survive an eviction, a car repossession, living with family for months, and not knowing if you are going to be able to pay that next bill coming in? From my experience, not many...but we have. I'm not proud that these things have happened to us, but they have. My thought is, you can choose to let something take over and bring you down, or you stand united together and figure out a way to make it work. I have made a commitment to spend the rest of my life with this man, and in this day and time, there are a lot of people that don't take that commitment seriously. I am NOT one of those people. I made a commitment because I love him and want to spend the rest of my life with him. So, this is basically me venting because my feelings have been hurt and I am very angry about it. I'm tired of being treated like a child when I am trying so hard to show that I am not a kid anymore. It doesn't matter what I do, it's wrong. I'm exhausted emotionally from trying to keep everyone else around me happy and I cannot do it anymore. I love my husband, divorce is not now, and will not be in the future an option. Not for us anyway. Call me naive if you'd like, but none of you are here day in and day out to know all of the intimate details of my relationship with my husband, and none of you have really taken the time to get to know him, so don't talk about things that you think you know. When in fact you are completely wrong. I have not settled for the man that I call my husband, I chose to be where I am! So, as the old saying goes, if you don't have anything nice to say then don't say anything at all.

That's all of my ranting for today. Hopefully, tomorrow will be a nicer blog.